looking in the darkness

Whenever I try to figure out about me, the first thing that strike my mind is the courtesy that I hold to my family, which is the motivation behind my existence. heard that people in other country doesn't give much value for the family, especially parents, is it really true, if so, how can that be? Perception matters!! Every other human is different from one, I'm the way I'm, nice way to defend myself, isn't it?
Okay, now I'm going off the topic which I thought of scribbling here tonight. I cannot force anybody being with me, though I always welcomed others sharing some moments. There is a lava burning in me, or is there an anxiety for the tomorrows. I'm absolutely going blank, space and darkness surrounding me, however far across I'm able to feel the light of hope, that could be my destiny.
I will write more on this soon...